The beauty of paradox
I am convinced about the pure beauty of Antigonus and paradoxical individuals.
It should not be easy to live under Alexander the Greatest roof and chase different ventures. Taking this mindset to the XXI century one would say you should no longer chase chaos and intellectual. You should not be passionate about careers and skinny dipping. Anthropology and Biology. I’d say fuck it. The most impressive individuals are the ones that blow your mind by being intellectually a jack-of-all-trades. Intellectually intriguing. So humbly high achievers that they don't feel the need of sharing destinations. Instead, they are highly aware of consciousness and they choose to discuss the mind.
Lately, I have been trying to share more practical aspects of my own life. ‘I did this’, ‘I did that’ and the truth is I don’t like it. Unless someone is able to convince me about the need to constantly inform communities of your individual actions, it does more harm than good and I will go back to my preferred form of sharing: the chaotic reflection behind exploratory essays.
You don’t know what you want. You want what you’ve known. You are not scared of the unknown. Our brains are not able to distinguish between good and bad. They recognize comfort zones. And they take action when the comfortable becomes so unbearable you have no other choice than to act. By inviting random people to my house and travelling alone to different places, I have built a ‘familiar discomfort’ zone and I no longer chase passion. I chase logic. Logic counteracts attachment, bases relationships out of purpose and helps you make decisions for the person you hope to be. The unrealised potential is painful and if you spend more time thinking about life than living it, you are doing it wrong.