On doubt and reflection
We live in demanding contradictions. Society tells us to wake up early, be productive and successful, yet it also tells us we should drink and go out with our friends until late in the night. Most of these things overlap and create a story of ambiguity.
Everything is just a story we tell ourselves. Nothing is real, but how we choose to portray and embody it. It’s easy for one to question himself when it gets dark and we are not able to make everyone happy.
I have questioned my emotions, personality, likes and dislikes over the years, and even put it into written format. Our thoughts are not something easily accessible at times. With practice, we can get there. If everything is part of our story, our insecurities should be small tweaks and flakes as well.
When we reflect on our strengths and weakness they might feel fixed. It’s called an exploratory essay for some reason. It goes from a point into the vast realm of reality, and back into an unsatisfactory solution. Now, we can give different tones to how we read the script: on a positive or negative note. Given that the natural tendency of human nature is to lean towards the negative, we have to make an active effort towards the bright side. With this said, on those evenings decision fatigue kicks in, we will fall into the minus. It requires some mental practice, and it’s no wonder that some philosophers hate themselves. So much thinking and rethinking and the world start to feel like a robust mess. It is a robust mess, but it can also be so much simpler than what we could ever set it to be.